I am a femme lesbian. I recently ended a relationship with a stone butch dyke. We are Leather Dykes*. When I refer to my partner I will alternate between the pronouns she, he and s/he. Because that is part of life with a masculine identified butch dyke.

I am writing to share the pain and the uplifting rush of my Awakening. It’s not entirely altruistic; I learn by writing and it allows me to vent what must be cleaned away.  I recognize that I have been engaged in some abusive relationship or another for my entire life. As the last drops of fertile blood seep out of my body, the realization becomes a knowing; this particular brand of insanity will end NOW.

Through my process if I am able to breathe even one quiet whisper of encouragement into one woman’s ear I will be grateful and blessed.

Patricia Evans, through her books and many other resources has empowered me to be what she calls a “spell breaker”. She has helped me change my life for the better. In gratitude to her, to the best of my ability, I share what she has given me so that we might weave a spell of positive magic among ALL the women of the world.

No more fucking around.

This is a good book to start with but there are many more. I heartily recommend all of them.

CAVEAT SECTION: I have never written a blog before and I have not yet “mastered” this software. Quality will get better over time. From this point on I will post on Thursday, every week.
*As I process my pain from this particular relationship it may appear that I am “dissing” the Leather Community in general.  I want to be very clear that NOT ALL power exchange relationships are dysfunctional. THAT is a whole post within itself. I am a proponent of people- especially women- finding strength and power within their sexual nature. I firmly believe that “Your Passion is Personal; Your Desires Divine”.
If that means BDSM or “missionary style every Saturday at 9PM” I applaud you!  Find it, own it and then make it happen.


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